There is a moment.
It comes out of nowhere and hits you right in the face. Pow!
It's impossible to explain.
It just comes.
And when it does, you know it's the one.
You know it's that particular moment, not some other moment with a similar vibe.

It's clear.

Suddenly, time has a meaning.
Suddenly.
Like, there was always time, but now there's not.
I mean, of course, there is, but it doesn't feel like there is. It's like the half time buzzer just sounded and you just realized you're way behind.
And now you've got a shit load of catching up to do and next to no time to do it.

This year, I'll be 38.

My whole life has been one elongated childhood.
I've taken everything in my stride and never thought about the future.

Well, a bit, but not like people seem to think I should. More like, what do I feel like doing with the rest of the week/my life?

Where would I like to go next?

Who could be waiting for me in this place or that place?

Which career would I like to try now?
I've had a hundred.
Delivery driver, dog walker, cameraman, music teacher, call center drone, web designer, mechanic, bachelor (that was a career).

And then there was this moment.

And now I'm all about my garden. And, like, organic food and one thing that hit me really hard was how long I've been away from my family.

It was fine, before. You know, cos there was all that time. And suddenly, it's like... I need to spend time with them before it's too late.

When did it become too late?

The moment came.
It hit me harder than I thought.
And now I'm here.

Time to get my shoes on and pick a direction.